i hate how your always there for me. No, actually i dont hate it. I wish you cared a tiny bit more. But then that would make things messed up for both of us. I like you better as a friend. your more upbeat and sarcastic. And now that we're friends I have the chance to tell you whatever i feel like saying. i dont have to worry about you being mad that i dont agree with your "ideas" and you hanging up because now i can do just the same. Your telling me what to do in my situation right now and I find it comforting but in the end are you really helping me? How come we can't be friends? How come we can't just sit down and talk without having to yell at eachother or it turning into an awkward silence. This is really bothering me. We can go to eachother about our problems but when it comes to anything other than that, we never get along. Maybe we'll grow into it but for now I'll sit and wait for you to reply to any messages I send you with the love of a friend and only a friend. been friends for 4 years been enemies for even less but no matter what we always have a chance to talk about any messed up things going on. Im content with our friendship. Dont change it now!



I constantly find myself looking for a new adventure. A place to go. People to see. Thoughts to rethink. But I can never act upon these thoughts. They are too weak. They have not grown into their full potential. I wish I could see what they will grow into. Beautiful days full of nothing but smiles.
Chris and i should be going on adventure soon. It makes my stomach hurt because its going to be so much fun. Off the HEEEZZYYYY!!! One bus ticket for the whole day, traveling all around los angeles.
china town.
the alleys.
santa monica.
hollywood.
venice.
ahHHHH!!! im getting excited just thinking about it. I'm glad I have a friend that knows how to take the bus. Now i just need to save money. So if we stop at a cute gift shop i can buy a souvenir representing every place we go. A pencil? a toy bird? I dont know, who knows? All i know is that this day is going to be unimaginable. I just need to hurry chris up and set our day. hopefully by next week we get this shiiizzz on track.


I feel like walking into a record store with about fifty bucks and saying, "give me the best!" AH! thats been my dream lately. I wish i could buy myself a record player. My grandma has one but I'm afraid to ask to use it. What if it hasnt been used? What if its broken? I dont wanna be dissapointed. They would be lovely collectables but I wanna put my vinyls to use. I didn't buy them to look cool I bought them to show myself that i can appreciate music in any shape or form. But until then I shall come on the computer and listen to what i gots tah listen to. ya get me dah?


I miss my friends and school. I wanna go back already. All this free time is making me rethink my actions and I dont like it one bit. Its too much time for a young girl. This school year should be off the heezzzzy, no doubt! ugh its giving me the willies just thinking about how awesome its going to be. Nothing but the last year of high school to cheer me up. College here i come. Journalism welcome me into your arms.





Look its me in the future getting married. No but really, I'm so eager to see this movie. just seeing the previews makes me smile. I hope it doesnt turn into a bust when everyone watches it. Itll be so dissapointing.