day 1

So I've never been this really inspiring person. I have always been in the background, the girl you see trying to find her way in the middle of a really important shot of someone else's special moment. That's how it's always been. I've never had a story written about me. People don't tell stories about me, and they don't think about me. I have never heard a song about me nor do I have any type of anthem of my life. I am just what I am living and breathing enjoying what I can and becoming friends with friends day by day. I may have not found my place with the right friends but it counts just as much if it were with true ones. I have good days and I have bad days. I scream. I yell. I curse, and I tell horrible lies. I sing. I write. I play. I jump. I love. I'm in love. I have loved. I notice the wrong and right in the things I do before and after I do them. I come up with brilliant ideas and follow through with them. I come up with brilliant ideas and let them slip away from my mind, losing them forever. I call people. I hate talking on the phone. I am insecure. I have lost. But one thing is....




I have never cheated.





This whole little entry was about me and my personality and my wrongs and my rights. But never will I write about the me that's inside. I will create a huge wall and block off any horrible thoughts. I will never tell you what I think about before I fall asleep and when I see her face on the screen. I will never tell you what I think about when I see his face on the screen. I will never tell you what I think about when I see both in person, standing in front of me in some big over sized picture.







it is what it is.




final. and done.