Today-Tuesday

I'm looking at all the things she wrote. I kinda giggle a little because it all seems so clear now. Everything was so out there in perfect colors and back then I just watched without a care in the world, and now that the puzzle has come together I kind of feel guilty for even clicking on the link.

I remember this one time you walked me home and we were in the happiest of moods and you were making me laugh. When we came upon this little patch of grass and all the grass was dead and brown. The whole place looked so sullen. But right smack in the middle of it all was a small flower. And I got so excited that i pointed it out to you and as I started walking towards it, you ran to where the flower was, made sure I watched and smashed it with your shoe. I was devastated, but I couldn't help but laugh so hard. It all seemed so sudden and joke-ish that I didn't even care. I kinda just wanted to see you do it again. You made fun of me after for being so devastated and for having a really funny look on my face. That's one thing I'll always remember.

Right now I'm ready to go to college. I went through this stage where I hated everything that was going on around me. I didn't wanna be anywhere but bed. Sometimes I didn't even wanna wake up to see jesse because I knew what kind of moods I'd be in, in the morning and it would only ruin our day together. I hate ruining our days together.

I've been so intrigued by Bukowski lately that I haven't even had time to run to Espinoza and tell him to check him out. The poems flow so elegantly off the paper. They don't have any rhyme scheme and there are never any couplets but the poems give me something to believe in. I'm sure he has heard about him and if he hasn't id be glad to introduce. Reading and writing has been giving me such great joy lately. Please give us this time to write a poem and show it to everyone. Show everyone what's really inside whether it's abstract or not.



You will live in my heart charles.


Language Fiend is going so smoothly. I've been thinking about starting a fundraiser to be able to send our zines to people in other countries. It's so wonderful knowing that mind and jesse's ideas are coming together, and people are really appreciating them. All thanks to Chalk Talk, Mark Chen, Ape up!, remainder, etc. etc. They've helped us get many readers and I couldn't thank them any more.



I like how you can see part of my body on the side. Jesse's hands are the mysterious ones holding our zine up. It's such a beautiful sight.

Spring break is coming up. Adventures are coming. I promise. Picture and or video.

-adventures with jesse
-movies at jesses house
(so many things with jesse ofcourse)
-dress shopping (prom)
-maybe hang out with an old friend IF THEY ACTUALLY KEEP THEIR PROMISE THIS TIME. yes you know who you are damn it.
-work on my musical abilities
-read 1984 (i dont understand why i havent read this already)
-stay up till 3 in the morning on the phone
etc. etc.
anything new, i'll add to the list.


Oh what a week.