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I'm calling out all of my senses tonight.

My heart beats faster than I could ever imagine it beating when using my imagination.

My mind makes up silly stories but my soul feels the tugging between the two worlds.

spiritual and secular.

wars caused over the very ideas that reside in my head.

i can't be sure that i'm safe in my bed.

the things that walk the surfaces of the three dimensional planes haunt my thoughts.

they don't just visit me in dreams but they visit me while i am conscious.

tears flood down my face at the thought of opening myself up to faith.

faith can only hurt me more than i do without a single belief in my heart.

i question who i am and why humanity is brought here.

where did the institution of government come from and why was it given to us?

are we the only ones who live here? or are we the only physical ones?

can we just see us or is there more than meets the eye?

if i let myself go, i'm falling down an abyss full of new worlds and new creatures.

what do you think?

can i ever be at peace with my mind?
i cry from the thoughts of the spiritual adventures that others take.

so vulnerable to the openness of religion.

does it need to be religious? or can it be spiritual all on its own?

these beings that walk around in our dreams.

these beings that follow their sense when we are not in ourselves.

sleep.

awake.

does the closing of our eyes really save us?

does the opening of our eyes help us at all?

tell me more and i'll shut my eyes and close my ears and pretend that I am ignorant.

i am a naive child with the wonders of a 3 year old.

i don't want to know the whole truth.

keepmesustained.