Middle ages

I'm looking at the picture as a whole. It's wilting at it's sides. It almost looks like I've kept it in a box in some old broken down house that creeks every time anyone wants to walk through it. It's turning brown. It's a side. I can tell you, I can go on and on, about what it looks like and what it really is. But, then I'll be beating around the bush, and that's what I've been trying to get through for the past couple of days. This picture has become something that I never wanted to lose even if I lost it I wanted to keep the image in my head forever but now I'm not to sure what I wanna do with it. I lost it, but not on accident. I lost it on purpose. The picture is old...

I'll still hold onto it forever but right now I don't wanna see it. I don't want to hold it and I don't want to watch it in the corner of my eye, lie there and pretend that it means nothing. So many things have changed in this new picture. Maybe I'm the one changing, maybe it's you but its definitely different. So many times have i tried to convince myself that I'll never let myself follow the same steps and choose the wrong paths over and over again. But here I am again, wanting the same things, wishing i was in the same places.

The only thing I can do now is look at it and put myself there again. But that won't mean I wont put it back in it's box and leave it to wilt some more. Only time will tell to see what I'll actually do with it. My decisions must come quick before I fall behind and watch this picture from all the places I'm in. I'll think about it and pull it out right when I get home. I'll glance on it on my free time. I don't want that. So now I'll keep it.



I'll put myself there and see what I feel.
Is it right for me?
What is it really that I picture myself looking like in a mere distant picture?
I don't know but if it's not here I'll have to leave.


Give me some time and I'll figure it out. I'll follow my ambitions and I'll know at the right time.
May it be tomorrow, may it be next week, next month? right this second....




i can see the path already, but for now, welcome to the world where a picture can say a million words.