meh

Lately I've overcome some things and I keep holding onto others. The weather is increasing tremendously and I feel like this summer will hold my future in it's small over heated hands.

I constantly get irritated by so many things and I feel that maybe soon I'll lose control of whats important to me. I become overwhelmed by my sense of pride or my weaknesses and I fail to bring myself back to normal.

My magazine has caught on fire and is now making itself known throughout the states. Good ideas are what I live for.

School is ending. High school is a bore. I remember reading about a week ago, my posts about how I was so excited for senior year and how great it was going to be. I live for the end now. I complain so much that even I hate hearing about it. But every time I return I seem to dread it more and more. The people, the useless information, the insufficient teachers. It all becomes a haze and I've been trying to find my way out of it for months.

I'm choking up right now because it seems like I'm wasting time here. I feel that I could be a writer making my name a little known, and I'll be out of here. But the more I return to the school the more i realize that I hate it. Im in a sea of kids. Maybe I'm an elitist? But at this point I am not ashamed of it. I've done what I needed to do, and I've learned what I needed to learn. Oh well, it's ending.


My best friend and lover pisses me off so bad sometimes. He doesn't like to listen to me. He hates when I keep talking when he's yelling at me to shut up. But this is only this week. I think it's one of those things where you're around someone too much and they just get tired of hearing the same old things. I can understand that but sometimes i hate the thought of him actually being tired of me or bored. It's this kind of phase we go through where we argue and argue and I bitch and complain and cry because I'm sick of it and then BOOM! it's back to normal. I wait for saturdays so that it can go away but oh well.



this is life.

ha.