mid-mid-life crisis

I'm going through this phase where I'm not content with anything or anyone.
I complain about everything.
I feel like I'm less secure about myself.
I mean honestly, nothing seems to interest me anymore.

Therefore, I have decided that I want to move away after I finish my general education at the school I will be attending in the summer. Somewhere where I won't be noticed and no one will yell out my name is recognition. I want to be away from it all. So...that's what I'm going to do.


I feel my throat closing in. I feel my eyes starting to get smaller. I know why this is happening and I don't like to point it out.


So there is where I stop complaining. I stop hating everything. I stop letting my frustrations get ahead of me and I just sit still. I wait till something happens. My background will move fast while I sit in the same place for hours on end. Well in my case it will be about a year and a half.


Let summer begin and the waiting start.