overwhelming dreams in emotions are

The world was all over the tv screens. From one home to the next. The tv blared the world news. We all were horrified. I, being so young yet so educated, knew every thing they were talking about. The leaders. The Party. The world being one whole Party. It was the most terrifying thing we had ever heard of. We needed to find a way out. So we chose to take as many sleeping pills as possible.

We all walked to the grocery store. We saw the changes happening. It was only a couple of days until everything went grey. We needed to be gone by then. We each bought one capsule and found a way into convincing ourselves that we deserved it. Me, my mother, my grandmother, my grandfather, my aunt and her boyfriend all needed to escape before the world collided. Before we all became one.

We were angry. My grandmother and mother had already bought a pill a couple of days before because they claimed that they knew the possibilities if anyone ever found out that they were finding a way out. They would be captured and they would be helped and kept alive. We were angry silently but deeply.

I swallowed the pill. I became overly drowsy in a matter of seconds. My grandmother held me as we all tried walking back home. She helped me walk so that no one would figure out our plan. We all wanted to be silent and gone.


I walk into my house feeling the need to listen to my brother's conversation with my mom.

"Mom, will you buy it for me when I get back from Arizona?"
"yes i'll try."

I was confused. My heart tore at my insides.

"ma, whatd he ask you?"
"he asked if i can buy him something but i dont even think ill be alive by the time he comes back"

My brother and sisters were staying. They were too young to feel the difference beating through their veins like we would. We were too educated to develop a strong confidence in the new world.

Day by day i was growing more and more tired. One day I would fall asleep and that would be it. I would no longer be apart of the world. I needed to confide in my mother.

"I'm scared. day by day i become more and more tired. I don't know if i made the right choice"

She hugs me tightly, and whispers..."just go to sleep...."



And I awake.