angry feelings

I get frustrated easily now a days. I think maybe it's my lack of social interaction and then sometimes i think it's because I get bored, so to entertain myself I make myself mad.


I don't know what it is. It's ridiculous.

I may seem to have a good life right now. New house. My own room. Money. New car (maybe). College.
But what they dont understand is that all of this stuff is material. Material that I have never had, so having them, doesn't mean a thing to me. It doesn't make me happier. It doesn't change my mood when I realize that I have them. Yes, I truly appreciate it all but I don't think that it should change the way I feel. If i'm irritated clothes won't make me happy and neither will anything worth a couple or even a hundred bucks will change that.


I think the life of being locked up in my room all the time and the life of keeping myself only close to one person should stop. I am not complaining but I do want change. I want to get more ideas and I want be influenced by great things and I wont be able to experience this if I dont jump up and do something for myself once in a while.


This is going to be something I want to do for myself and I promise you I wont let anyone stop me.