I feel them. They're wet and they roll beautifully down pale cheeks.


They're the water that flows inside of me. But, it is no longer in side of me, they are now showing and expressing how i feel inside and out. Is it a break down? Have I finally lost it? Have I finally come to terms with my feelings? I don't need you and I keep trying to convince myself that I do. It's not working. I keep putting up with your tantrums and your silly tactics but I can't. I keep looking in the mirror and telling you that you're becoming someone you never wanted to be. I want to blame others for making you like this but this was all your doing. You made me this way.




I see one word answers every where. I avoid starting a fight. I avoid expressing my feelings because they're dumb and a waste of time and I'm stupid for thinking this way. I am. Am I? No, you are. Yeah, you're not. I don't know anymore.


I can sound like these girls who rant on about guys but I don't care about boys. I care about myself and I always put myself first. I can differentiate myself from the rest of them but someone will always have the feelings, the same blog post, the same words, the same punctuation. It's upsetting.



I want my leaves to grow so that I can be on my own. I love my family. As I grow older you would think that I would start ignoring them and not wanting to spend time with them but as I get older, those are the only people I want to be with. It kills me when I'm not with them. I've become a home-body. Am i too mature? Am I too independent? Would it could if I was independent towards society and not my family? What would be the word for that? Socidependent? I'm not sure.



I cant take this thing anymore. This circle of cross streets and roads. We pass the same statue every single day. When are we going to make a left or even a right? It gets boring. We can't find any time to surprise each other. If this is how it's going to be, let's both jump out of the moving car and go our separate ways. Lets add some adventure. Come on, join me.




Good bye.