Everything slowly keeps building. I hear myself yelling and I understand why I react like this. I have slowly become angry with everyone. I know why this is.
I can hear my heart beating through my chest. I can feel my food coming up from my stomach. It's an ugly feeling but it's a familiar one. Lately, this is all I feel.
I remember smiling and feeling like the world was okay and even with all of its problems, they would never hit me because everything would really be okay.
The stage of growing up is coming on fast. I need transportation, I need an education, and I need funds to support myself and my needs.
My heart grows farther and farther apart from the world and it slowly gets ignored by what I need rather than what I feel. So it shows itself only when it feels the pressure coming on.
I don't know when I'll give up or when I'll be content with everyone and my world around me.
Slowly, the puzzle pieces are coming together. You weren't who you claimed to be. You're different. I look in the mirror and I see me and you. We're different. this needs to end.
good bye.
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