Ha. So i'm texting anthony. He is one of the very few people that i enjoy talking to through text. I have this weird annoyance with people texting me, even though when I don't have a phone, I complain at times and then I realize how happy I am without it. Except for when I'm in serious need of a phone call from mister macksalot, which is practically every night. As, I was saying! We are talking and I finally realize how amazing school is going to be. I'm getting the things I need, to be something in the future plus, I'm taking fun and exciting classes. UGH, i cant wait for art class. I hope we get to use pastels, and I hope this is not an easy A class. I want a challenge. Challenges are what I live for now. They are what I see in everything I do, from a day to day basis.

New friends maybe? New teachers? Old teachers, definitely. I'm so excited to be Mr. Espinoza's TA. Can you say, amazing taste in music? We can talk about music for hours and still be totally intrigued by the new stuff we find. I remember one time I received a demo in the mail from a band and the moment i got it, I marked down on my agenda: LET MR. ESPINOZA BORROW IT! and when he did listen to it, he liked it. Awesome. I hope i meet more teachers like this in years to come. So open minded and willing to speak the truth.

I'm currently downloading some music that was shown to me by mister macksalot and the first time I heard it i thought, "it gives me a feeling of warmth. Like your in a dream just relaxing laying down and so...sooo...soooo...chill?" I don't have good words to describe how certain music makes me feel but this time there was definitely a spark. I'm waiting for it to finish so that when I transfer it into my ipod I can play it while I'm in the shower. So good.

Today was magnificent. For the first time ever, I took a nap in a closet. A closet. Yes, I said a closet. A bit uncomfortable from a neck ache when i woke up but the whole time I was asleep I was floating on clouds. Especially having him next to me. We are such kids. We're cute too. No i'm not being conceded. Okay maybe I am just a bit but it's because thats how good I feel about him. We can nap together while holding hands and we can stick hairs up eachothers noses for fun, and be completely entertained the whole time. My visit first started off with a series of incorrect high fives. We needed the perfect one. Palm to palm. Fingers to fingers. Thumbs to thumbs. Hand in hand. After about 10 tries we finally got it and you better believe that our hands were uber red. (i love the word uber) i was half asleep and he was determined. We make a great team, we really do. Sometimes I doubt myself thinking, will i ever make him completely happy but when I'm with him he never seizes to show me that I do. At the end of my visit I was told to close my eyes, afraid that I'd get pushed into something or just given something creepy, I hesitated. He asked please and I said okay. I covered my eyes. I hear drawers open and I know hes not kidding around. He asks for my hands and my eyes to still be shut. I hold out my hands and I feel a tiny container placed in my palms. he says open. As soon as I open them there is a container of playdough in front of me. (i absolutely adore playdough, and he knows this) and i open it and the playdough is rock solid. I look up and I can't take the smile off my face for the life of me. We both say, "its the thought that counts" at the same time and the whole time I'm walking to the car I'm smiling and all giggly. He makes me so happy.

As I'm sitting here typing this all out, my brother comes along and pulls some grapes out of the fridge but this is not what im intrigued by. I'm interested in the song he's singing. I don't know where its from or if he made it up but its catchy and I wanna learn it. I really do. It goes a little something like this:
"i can write my name, I can read a book..."
the rest is all gibberish. Or so i can hear? Im sure they are words but I cant understand between his lisp and his growing speech. I think I'm going to ask him to teach me the song, I wanna sing along with him. He'll keep me young. I know it.

ah the music has finally finished downloading. I'm off to my shower and some episodes of the nanny and that 70s show. goodnight.